From http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Immortality:

Most likely the hardest cause of death to overcome is trauma. The problems of aging and disease usually at least provide ample time to solve them, if the technology exists. But even in a postulated world where aging and disease were correctable conditions, getting shot in the head is not.

anendlessnight wanna know my top 10 W songs. Here, for no reason in particular, is the indie-dork edition:

Washer - Slint
Wish Fulfillment - Sonic Youth
Well Built Road - Don Caballero
Waffle - Sunny Day Real Estate
Which Will - Nick Drake
What Jail Is Like - Afghan Whigs
Waiting Room - Fugazi
Wow & Flutter - Stereolab
When You Sleep - My Bloody Valentine
What To Want - Small Factory

Pat Burrell at 30:

 Year Ag Tm  Lg  G   AB    R    H   2B 3B  HR  RBI  SB CS  BB  SO   BA   OBP   SLG *OPS+  TB   SH  SF IBB HBP GDP 
+--------------+---+----+----+----+---+--+---+----+---+--+---+---+-----+-----+-----+----+----+---+---+---+---+---+
 2007 30 PHI NL  92  259   38   62  13  0  12   46   0  0  69  64  .239  .400  .429  117  111   0   4   1   3   8

Rob Deer at 30:

 Year Ag Tm  Lg  G   AB    R    H   2B 3B  HR  RBI  SB CS  BB  SO   BA   OBP   SLG *OPS+  TB   SH  SF IBB HBP GDP 
+--------------+---+----+----+----+---+--+---+----+---+--+---+---+-----+-----+-----+----+----+---+---+---+---+---+
 1991 30 DET AL 134  448   64   80  14  2  25   64   1  3  89 175  .179  .314  .386   92  173   0   2   1   0   3

Never thought I'd be wishing Pat Burrell struck out more often. But either way, a 44.2% TTO is a pretty good season. And so far tonight he's 0-1 with 2 more BBs.

I have nothing to say about anything anymore, so instead I'm gonna fill my blog with random crap. Here are the movies I watched in June. Who needs human interaction when you have entertainment like this?

( life and death in june )

Lately I've been feeling like a tourist in my own life; just laying back and letting life happen to me, rather than being an active participant. I can fulfill my daily obligations but I rarely venture past that. It's gotten to the point where I can't even pick up the phone and call my friends when I want to talk or go out somewhere or whatever. I know that when I'm productive and active I'm a lot happier, but I can't find the internal mechanism to get off the couch and spark that sort of activity.

With that in mind, I'm thinking of taking up a martial art. Ideally I'd like to do something with an emphasis on internal growth and strength, rather than just adherence to physical technique. I'd view the physical activity and exercise as a pleasant bonus. Spirituality and mysticism aren't really what I'm looking for, more the ability to drum up confidence without all the forced internal dialogue that never really works anyway. So far it looks like aikido might be a nice fit, but I don't know much about it beyond what I've read on the Wikipedia entry.

It's a shot in the dark, maybe, but I'm wondering if anyone reading this has any experience or suggestions in this area.

I'm trying to lose myself in my studies because I think the more I have going on in my mind, the less room there is for the other shit to seep in. The biggest problem is that I'm pushing a lot of my personal relationships and interests aside, and spending way too much time in a bubble.

Life is never so difficult as when you need to find that balance between being there for others and being there for yourself.

Overall I'm... ok. I can live with ok.

The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age. -- HP Lovecraft

So I'm putzing around with an ISC bot, employing my usual online strategy of just slapping things down as I see them, and I hit this position:



I'm not paying close enough attention to consider things like QuINOA so I just put down QUIN -- keeping a powerhouse ?AAOW. Nearly jumped out of my chair as the bot plays its bing up top and I draw exactly OR.

It's considerably more satisfying to win on a 55-yard rush while breaking five tackles than to watch the other team botch the extra-point attempt... but still it was damn fun getting that word onto the board.